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Tuesday, February 26, 2008, 11:05 PM

had my theory lessons at bbdc today. earlier in the afternoon. went to gym. b4 heading to bbdc. i met her. juz to see each other another time.

things i fucking care in my life now:
1. studies
2. license
3. family
4. fitness
5. money

i dun noe why i posted this though. but i guess i really wanna make it happen.

Sunday, February 24, 2008, 9:37 PM

22 february. 830pm. i am so sorrie. but i felt that the decision is final. i've been thinking about it. and been holding back on it for like a month or two. i still love eu. but my love for u has fallen. from a couple's love. to a special fren love. its different. i still care about u. but its not like how i did 9 months ago. i admit my feelings have changed. im so so sorry. i noe its hard for u to take it. but if i were to pity u, then no one would pity me. and either or, im in a lose lose situation.
dear norrafizah. im sorrie once again. but i felt this is the best for us.

be strong, norrafizah.
ur life can go way better without me.

Friday, February 15, 2008, 8:26 PM

yesterday is valentine's! and a very happy valentine to all of eu out dere! well. no v day for me anw. went to school at 11am. studied cma alone till the girls reached around 3pm. its a good thing though i studied alone. thats when i really digest my brain that hasnt been working for quite some time. haha. around 4pm, left np to go pay some stuffs a t a bank at bkt btk. dear accompanied me. den we met yayat and izmirBobby and we played pool at csc. it was fun except for a group of ah bengs who find trouble with us. and bobby and yayat said its useless fighting them. but i was soooo fucked at them. if only erwinato was there. im sure we will whack them. those shits are so young and skinny and still dare to find trouble. mentang2 korang byk. to the fucking ah bengs at csc. kau tunggu jer. aku sumpah satu hari aku mesti cuci korang nyer. fuck their moms.
then we met alawiyah and kalBison for a while b4 heading to kallang to fetch ikin, send them back to clementi. yayat, bobby, seri and me went to have supper at hazwani. and we went home aft tht.
today. cma paper was shit. i dint noe how to do the last qn. active based costing. wtf. i didnt cover that topic. and furthermore. blaw tmr is hard as usual. and here i am, not even covering a topic. shit. im off to mugg people!

aku conferm bantai tu ah beng nyer.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008, 11:04 PM

exams are a pain in the ass!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008, 10:46 PM

and today i didnt go anywhere in particular. dear met me early in the morning. we chill around before heading to her sec school to collect her report book. she was like so noisy about it. nanti kalau teacher marah camne? i hate the principal lah. i takot lah d. hahaha. and in the end, the whole scary process just took 10 mins.

then we went subway, met her frens and chit chat a while. before both of us head home. and i spend the whole day at home. psp, tv, laptop, study, sleep. ahaha. not in the mood for jogs. will be doing it tmr.

jgn bilang tidak, bila kita belom mencuba.

i love that song!

, 12:55 AM

havent been blogging lately kan kan kan? wahaa. dear went to Pulau Kasu on wed, 6 feb and erwin booked out on that day. yays and boohoos. while dear was having fun at her kampung, i spend my cny break with erwin and the other guys. we went out. and went for a lot of jogging. from our house to gombak and back. did a lot of gym lately. and helped out at mum's shop a lot too.

i just found out my bowling skills dropped. badly. mann. cos we went out to kallang leisure park ytd. me, yatPelik, erwiNato and fyzakusayang. went to arnold's at geylang ferst for lunch b4 gg

KLP. its similar to vivo. except its still not fully open yet. we had fun though.

Sunday, February 3, 2008, 10:08 AM

2nd february. happy anniversary sayangg! i cant believe we are together for like 9 months. everything seems so fast nowadays. but anyway, i'm still lovingg u. we had a simple anniversary. we met around 630pm. at west mall. went for dinner at kfc. den we chill at block 106. and she gave me the sweetest present ever! awww. the card is like sooooo cute. =) and i send my princess home at 9pm.
i went to help out at my mum's stall in the morning. i had the most torrid time of my life i tell u. the customers were overflowing. and fucking fussy man.at noon, went to school to finish blaw project. shooting films in school. and i hate that project group. perfectionist. aah fuck. why cant we just have fun shooting instead of following every single detail by the book. and recording our voice? wat the hell. as if our voices are not clear enough. shit filming. i had no such problem filming wif my IS group last year.

Saturday, February 2, 2008, 12:28 AM

its been years. i myself cant even remember when. it has never happen to me since like i was eleven. i think. but just now. it did. i let out tears. the thing just came out from my eyes. the water that has been inside the eyes so long; it came out. its hard to explain why.
i cant possibly type out the reason to my tears. but i really cant help it. its hard for me to tell the sad truth here. and even sadly, i got no one to fucking shout my problems to.
i maybe a joyful person outside. a happy and i really mean happy-go-lucky guy i may seem to be. but recently, no one noes of the sorrow inside. i blog about this just to let my emotions out. i have these fucking shits occuring to me. and no one is dere. no one. no one i can share with. not even, sadly, my close ones. the one i always share with has gone to serve the country. and the rest. well. they got their current personal life. studies, gerls, werk. sometimes i feel im just somebody who just bond everyine together. and if i dont look for them, then they wont even beep my phone. where are the frens; heck, the brothers i had when i was in secondary school? u guys were always there then. y cant u be here now. now u guys noe im not this emotional type. im only like this once in front of u guys. so u noe when im like this, something is really wrong. haiz. i donno. its just hard to meet nowadays. sadly.
those problems. my shits, her shits, their shits. they're all killing me. im like a quiet earthworm keeping its lion roar in itself, wanting to shout out loud. i hate the werld now.
i want to get rid of the sources of my problems. but i really really cant. how would u feel. if the only way to rid of the things or situations that u really hate in your life, is to first rid of the thing u really love and adore most in ur life? if only u knew..

thanks hidayah. at least u are there.

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Jack, nineteen.
Diploma in Business Studies, Ngee Ann.
I grow older every 18 September, love beach-ing and can't live without kinder buenos.
I'll be a millionaire one day and I'll be driving my own Audi R8.

I party like a rockstar, look like a movie star, play like an all star, fuck like a pornstar.
Baby, I am a Superstar.

♥ Nur Izzah Hazwani Bte Kasmad.
The little angel which God present to me from above; giving me the answer to my clueless life, piece to my missing puzzle and love for my empty heart.
In short,
i love you.

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